Some people say you are happy , There's everything , With a job and a husband , You have children ....... But I'm really tired .
And since last week , I'm out of work .
From the moment of unemployment to the present , I'm bored with everything , Always lose your temper for no reason , Of course, I'm just sulking myself .
For middle-aged women , The harm of unemployment is too great .
Who will pity you or care about you ？ ha-ha , no one , Only you care about yourself .
Neither , I want to care about myself, but I can't do anything , No job , It's just an identity missing , You're still a wife and mother and so on , You can't put down your work and lie in bed .
Suddenly I feel that life is not what I imagined , Now I want to be a farmer again , A reassuring farmer , At least if I were a farmer , At the moment, I should be the happiest me in the world .
I can enjoy all kinds of customs from the countryside , For example, now I don't have to run around by car , You don't have to be around the computer for so-called income and back pain .
Am I delicate ？ No .
Because now I'm not who I used to be , But everyone is still everyone , In everyone's eyes, I am still me , Nothing has changed from before , Even now .
So I want to go back to the countryside and be a farmer , This is my wish now , Maybe I'll be much happier when I'm a farmer .
I used to be so afraid of hardship and fatigue , Everything is so crisp , But now I am so lazy , It's uncomfortable to move a little , Stomach upset , And always dizzy , The doctor said I should pay attention to rest , Anemia is really not a good thing for me now , Especially for me now .
I'm not so sensitive for myself , Do I care too much ？ Maybe it is , I want to protect myself and ......., Am I wrong ？ ha-ha , Maybe I'm really wrong .
It's terrible now , Every day is either taking a baby , Or stay alone in the room .
Everything around me suffocated me , I can't find room to breathe , In addition to a courtyard, it is also a courtyard , In addition to taking a baby or taking a baby , Now I don't seem to talk much anymore , All lazy , Maybe I will be depressed in the near future .
Happiness for me , It's just a sentence of happiness .